Ways of wandering ~~~ with unexpected surprises ^^

YYYYEEAAAHH \^^/ Exams have ended ~~ and i have a few months of freedom before school starts again ~~ other than the routine cleaning of my room ~~ which is a yearly commitment :p ~~ i have actually a few interesting things going this holiday ~~ and I may have more than just a few things going on haha ~~ This is actually good though ~~ i think ~~ cause im actually doing stuff that i really like ^^ ~~ but then ~~ i have lesser time to myself ~~ haha but it will be fun ^^ ~~ 

First thing that I'm doing will be an event ~~ Korean Night Festival ^^ ~~ this one is kinda cool ~~ so i get to be like in charge haha ~~ I'm the production manager and also the stage manager for the event ~~ gotta admit it's pretty cool signing off with that :p ~~ and its something i can add to my resume ~~ so far i think there are hits and misses for the event ~~ a few disagreements here and there ~~ and the commitment level is INSANE ~~ like crazy O.O ~~ and i have to travel all the kembangan for meeting >< ~~ which is like 1.5 hours journey?? ~~ and then disagreements and mixture of views along the way ~~~ with changes to the people in charge~~ its like super confusing now at this stage ~~ so yeah ~~ i guess that how things are like in general as well ~~ you cant always have things happening smoothly i guess >< ~~

But one thing ~~ the audition day was a huge success ^^ ~~ at least to me it was ~~ like kinda planned the whole thing and watch it come true ~~ apart from a few technical difficulties ~~ i mean the sound system as sooo bad >< ~~ like so much static and wow ~~ and we had no technicians too ~~ everything had to be handled by ourself ~~ so you know ~~ its pretty impressive haha ^^ ~~ soooo much work ~~ but yeah pretty impressive ~~ and also its so heartwarming to see ppl in email thanking us for our effort ^^ ~~ that was really nice of them ~~ and running around the place was soo tiring >< ~~ i was soo tired when i went home then i juz lie on the bed and juz sleep ~~ and my legs were aching like mad ~~ It's so different from joining an audition and actually planning one ~~ its so much more work and like you realize that people kinda ask dumb questions sometimes >< ~~ sooooo yeah ~~ interesting to know

#KNF6

Next thing !! ~~~ Ways of wondering ^^ ~~ a theatreworks project part of singapore international festival of arts ~~ This one is more of a group kind of performance ~~ similar to the one i did previously with L.I.F.T ~~ so im pretty interested to see how this one turns out ~~ cause its a group dynamics and we get to work with some pretty awesome mentors ^^ ~~ rehearsals haven really started out yet as we will be creating a piece as a group ~~ but i've been to a few socials and it was fun ^^ ~~ like i really find it interesting and stuff ~~ so looking forward to rehearsals very much ~~ and maybe make a few new friends along the way ~~ haha idk >< ~~ see how it goes

Pinky is excited too ^^ ~

Last one ~~ was quite an unexpected one ~~ haha i got casted for a play that will be done for a group of students at Republic Poly for their final year project~~ i saw the audition and i was free so i was like why not and go try for it ~~ cause i mean it was holiday so i pretty much have nothing to do on weekdays like physically haha ~~ cause KNF is like emails everyday and stuff >< ~~ but yeah ~~ so its kinda cool ~~ like i got casted haha ~~ and I will be appearing in 3 scenes out of 7 scenes i think ~ which is pretty good haha ~~ had my 1st rehersal today ~~ the director was really nice because she said she dont mind our views as well ~~ which is good ^^ ~~ cause i dont really like it when someone just direct me and i have to do  totally what the director says >< ~~ and yes ~~ apparently i was asked to dance during casting ~~ and i later found out that i got casted because of that dancing 0.0 ~~ and i will have to kinda dance for one scene 0.0 ~~ oh man ~~ im so doomed ~~ like so doomed 0.0 ~~ oh man >< ~~ have to see how rehersals go for that scene >< ~~ but the play is pretty interesting ~~ its about crime in singapore and what the social media reactions are ~~ so im excited for that as well ^^

Sooo to sum up ~~ im gonna be pretty busy during the holidays as well ^^ ~~ but im a good way cause im actually doing things that i want to be doing as my job ~~ so im really glad and happy ~~ instead of doing internship like everyone else ~~ im actually doing stuff that im happy to be doing and are more than excited to be involved in !! ^^ ~~~ its gonna be an interesting holiday ^^ ~~ and probably this will take me further into more projects like these in the future haha ^^ *cross fingers

XOXO, Hugs & Kisses

GDYBRI ~~~ Thinking of you ~~~

\^^/ ~~ okay to be more honest ~~ maybe it not too much \^^/ ~~ haiz bigbang how ~~ i dunno where i stand with you guys ><  ~~ 不是不爱你们了~~ 你们五个无论如何都是我的哥哥~~ 超级无敌厉害到要死的哥哥们 :P ~~ 不管去哪里都有人在你们后面尖叫的哥哥们 ~~ 让我这个妹妹很骄傲的哥哥们~~ 可是 ~~ 新的粉丝/幼稚的粉丝真的让我很想把你们放下 ~~ 上个演唱会我有想过把你们放下~~ 可是那时我以为是说说而已~~ 但我去了这个见面会 ~~ 才知道上次不只是说说而已 ~~ 我整个人被粉丝和主办单位搞到很没有心情 ~~ 然后见到你们 ~~ 心情也没有变的特别好 ~~ 不是不喜欢你们了~~ 我自己也不知道 ~~ 怎么办 >< 我心情好乱 ~~ ><

Anyway ~~ the day started off with queuing as usual ~~ actually to be exact ~~ the day before the fanmeet ~~ overnight again ~~ haha ~~ im actually quite fine with queuing overnight cause like ~~ i enjoy being out late at night where the surrounding are all quiet and I'm walking around ~~ its like everything around me stops ~~ so the only time I am able to do this is when i queue overnight for concert ~~ but everytime i queue i also think i very dumb for queuing cause like >< ~~ you know ~~ i could be at home sleeping haha ~~ so i was like around 15th person in the queue ~~ and guess who was 1st ~~ the one that started the queue since wed ~~ the same bunch of people ~~ seriously -.- ~~ i knew it !! ~~ the one that spoil market (?) as ppl call it haha ~~ they started super early for F1 too ~~ haiz i dont even want to talk about it ~~ everything that needs to said has already been said ~~

^^

Anyway ~~ on that sat ~~ it was CRAZY !! ~~  cause you know what ~~ ticketing for LOE was on that day too >< ~~ like wow ~~ actually i was still okay with it ~~ cause i thought there was a sistic counter at indoor stadium ~~ GUESS WHAT ~~ IT CLOSE DOWN >< ~~ wow wow wow ~~ at first i was still like ~~ okay i can queue for BB n B.A.P at the same day ~~ then sistic -.- ~~ whhhhyyyyyy u close at indoor stadium :( ~~~ haiz >< ~~ so i decided that i will travel down to millenia walk sistic to get tixs the next morning ~~ but that morning i check twitter and i realize there were already 2-3 ppl waiting  ~~ then i was like >< haiz ~~ luckily i suddenly remembered my friend told me that were a sistic counter at bras basah and no one goes there cause no one kinda knows bout it ~~ so i went there ~~ and indeed i was the 1st person at the counter~~

Since the sistic person told me to go to the counter at 12 when the ticketing is release , i found a place near the sistic counter to sit down ~~ then there was this lady (?) that was wondering around sistic ~~ i didnt assume she was going for LOE cause i mean like babys are usually of a younger age (?) ~~ if i was queuing for BB i would like ask her immediately ~~ then after a while I went to ask her ~~ then she was so fierce >< ~~ :'( ~~~ but long story short ~~ i still got to be first in line ~~ and let me tell you ~~ sistic counter is absolutely useless >< ~~ the tickets sales was CRAZY !!! ~~ I couldnt even click the any tickets in cat one !! CRAZY ~~ even for BB i think it wasnt this bad !! ~~ I panic so much >< ~~ i was almost like ~~ i dont want to go anymore ~~ bye bye B.A.P :'( ~~ but wowwowwowwowwow !!! wee kiat is one awesome dude !! He managed to get tixs on HOTSPOT !!! HOTSPOT PPL !! omg ~~~ THANK YOU SO MUCH ^^ !!! ~~~ omg when i got back to queue i kept shaking him like mad !! HE'S AWESOME !! n not only that he got seats !! he got like really front seats !! 0.0 ~~ and he managed to get two more pair for eehui's friend !! ~~ wow ~~ i dont know how he did it !! AMAZING !! and yes MUST THANK TO SAM's HOTSPOT OKAY SAM ??? hahaha ~~ yes sam is AWESOME too :P

Okay back to BB ~~ yes then another annoying thing happen ~~ whats is with the fandom seriously !! ~~ i miss the calm era :( ~~ i dont even feel like typing it out ~~ long story short ~~ super chaotic ~~ if ppl were trampled on im not surprised ~~ zero crowd control ~~ ppl lost the list and then LUCKILY found it again ~~ then ppl shouting at ppl ~~ and irresponsible ppl and rude ppl ~~ and just a huge big mess >< ~~ 

Anyway ~~ the organizers gave us piece of paper to write our details in ~~ i got a feeling its for like the picking of fans from the mosh pit ~~ i was right haha ~~ they left a space for us to write message but i doubt GDYBRI will read them too ~~ but just for fun ~~~ and i actually wrote stuff at the back and ~~~ haha i shall not translate it ~~ if not ppl will faint :O 

~아이이이잉~ haha

Then we entered ~~ but my mood was already very spoilt >:( ~~ haiz ~~ but ya ~~ we got the 1st row of the mosh pit ~~ but the pit was really very small ~~ and they were quite alot of empty seats all round >< ~~ haiz ~~ this event really ~~ haiz ~~ and it was suppose to be 2 hrs ~~ but i think it was around 1hr 30 mins only ~~ then i think we stood in the pit for around 1hr too before the event started ~~ then the mv that they were showing was all 2ne1 ~~ for like 30 mins ~~ i was a bit upset about that too ~~

Then dee kosh came out and hosted the fanmeet that lasted around 30 mins ~~ they picked ppl to go on stage and then GDYBRI have to dress them up according to certain theme ~~ it was quite fun to watch them haha ~~ GD totally like flop haha :P ~~ his theme was cute ~~ then he dressed the girl to look like harry potter ~~ really 오빠 ?? ~~ harry potter haha ~~ YB got hip-hop which he did a very good job in ~~ and what about maknae ~~ haha he got sexy !! and wow ~~ you ~~ he gave the girl a whip ~~ then he ask the girl to hit him o.O ~~ someone a bit too excited ah :P ~~ GDYBRI also twerk /.\ ~~ wow ~~ i have to say although i don't like the way dee kosh portray himself ~~ he is a pretty good host ~~ haha

~tadah ~

Then 3 of them performed solo songs and then for the encore ~~ they came out to sing bad boy n fantastic baby ~~ seungri was ~~ as usual ~~ the best to us haha ~~ he was like 'I dont care GD, I want to talk' 'You guys pay good money to see me so i must talk !' ~~ yes ~~ we love you too ~ haha ~~ his english improved ALOT too~~ so proud of him haha !! ~~ not bad ~~ learning english, chinese and jap !! 오빠 ~~ 잘했어요!! haha ~~ when i went back to hear the recording ~~ haha it was so awesome !!

And we also got a free shirt after the event with GDYBRI printed autograph on it ~~ cause ppl complain tixs were too expensive >< ~~ so ya ~

^^

Did i enjoy myself after the fanmeet? I really dont know to be honest ~~ prob because the other things spoilt my mood ~~ you can see i type this also like half hearted ~~ haiz ~~ bigbang how ~~ idk >< ~~ hhhoooowwww ~~ i actually 放空 during the concert >< ~~ what is this >< !! ~~ i know you cant blame BB ~~ but i really think the fans affect me alot ~~ dont get me started with the local fanbase also >< ~~ haiz !!! 不知道不知道不知道不知道 >< !!! 난 몰라 >< maybe ~~ idk ~~ haiz ~~ lets just not go on ~~

XOXO, Hugs & Kisses

사랑해요 오빠  ~ 

하지만...

난 진짜 몰라 ><

要到什么时候才会结束。。。

再一次。。。又哭了。。。

到底要哭到什么时候。。。

原本以为过了初中就不会这样了，没想到大学也没有好到哪里去。一开始的眼泪直到今日都还没流完吗？一次又一次的心里折磨，我也受不了了。眼泪流的不只是伤心和心痛，也流着愤怒、后悔、盲目和愚蠢。

伤心和心痛， 因为无法忍受自己没办法追求梦想。

后悔， 因为或许自己再努力一点，今天就不会这样。

愤怒， 因为或许自己不够好，没有能力，没有勇气。

盲目，因为心以麻木了。

愚蠢，因为又不是第一次。

这是我的问题吗？或许我真的不行。。。

社会眼中的我，一定很不好吧。我不会读书， 也不会跟着规矩走。不是一个理想的公民吧。你们要我读书，我也尽量配合了。让一个完全坐不住的人，把自己捆起来为了读书。我已经很尽量的跟着你们的规矩了。难到你们不能体谅一下我的感受吗？

从小到大因为跟一般人的想法不一样，老是被人批评、取笑。为了配合大家，我也曾经把自己藏起来。但是为何我要那么做呢。跟大家不一样就是错的吗？难道这个社会上没有我存在的位子吗。我不想再说了，也不想再一次有一次的解释我自己了。因为我已不在乎了。

我已经很尽量的面对了。一直逃避责任、逃避现实的我，一点一点努力的走向社会。可是不管我多么努力，后果还是一样。在社会的眼里，我还是不成功的。

可能有一天，我真的会放弃。不是没有梦想了，而是因为恐怕我坚持不下去了。

我也是人，也拥有着脆弱的心。

我真的不想再哭了。。。

没力气了。。。

累了。。。

可能有一天，陈韵馨不会存在了。

~~ 나 오 늘 미치GO ~~~ 싶어 yeah \^^/

Come on girls ~~ come on boys ~~ come on come on ~~ get your crayon crayon ~~ haha ~~ crayon was the previous previous album right~~ hmm i shld prob sing the newer album ~~ umm ~~ this is my coup de tat ~~ hahaha ~~ THE REVOLUTION IS HERE !!

okay ~~ so hahaha ~~ Kwon Jiyong \^^/ ~~ me and sam went to watch OOAK 3D movie in cinema ~~ second BB movie after alive in HK ~~

So we began buying tickets as always haha ~~ and we choose to watch at GV Marina ~~ cause i thought most ppl would choose there too and it would be quite high ~~ i was sooo wrong >< ~~ soooo wrong !! ~~ anyway there was a standee outside the cinema ~~ and we took photo with it ~~ I bought both ver 3/4 of my lightstick and sam got version 4 ~~ and i even brough GD world slogan !! ~~ cause since i got it haha ~~ for fun :P

\^^/

Then we all went into the cinema ~~ it think just similar to Alive ~~  cause i think they took the footage from the DVD ~~ so for this i think it would be the same footage as the DVD also ~~ the 1st thing i noticed was that no one around us actually brought lightstick 0.0 ~~ and i think only 2 other ppl other than us bought lightstick 0.0 ~~ oh wow ~~ I suddenly feel that HK was so much better ~~ at least ppl on lightstick and even though they did not wave them ~~ there was this girl behind me thinking of whether to on hers ~~ then i turn behind and told her to on it ~~ haha ~~ yes i did that ~~ but then still :( ~~ the atmosphere was like >< ~~ the person beside sam was like annoyed that we had lightstick ~~ but then ~~ haiz

I was so upset that i didnt really enjoyed myself too ~~ mostly because of the lightstick thing~~ furthermore ~~ most ppl seem not to know GD previous songs from Heartbreaker ~~ like she's gone and stuff ~~ cause only like OOAK/Crayon ~~ received reaction from the crowd ~~ haiz >< ~~ 

~only us with crowns~

Why so serious ~~ yes why so serious ppl ~~ lol ~~ most people were soo tense >< ~~ haiz ~~ maybe next time i will choose seats at the last row ~~ so that we turn on our lightsticks also no one will see >< ~~ but i made friends with the girl with the lightstick behind me ^^ ~~ haha that was one happy thing that came out of it~~

This sat ~~ will be GDYBRI FM ~~ and i was soo excited for it ~~ but not anymore >< ~~ the organizers haiz ~~ it is suppose to be organized by One production and Launch ~~ shldnt Launch be a really good organizer ?  ~~ and like ~~ sudden changed of seating plan ~~ up till now still never release info about the diff in the GA1/GA2 for the pit even though they said they will ~~ merch list too ~~ like really >< haiz ~~ i hope it all goes well on that day ~~ oh did i mentioned ~~~ the host for the event >< ~~ i really do not like him haiz ~~ >< ~~ i was originally so excited ~~ but now :( ~~ i hope it will still be as fun ~~ Panda Lee riri ~~ plz make it fun ~ haha ~~ im counting on you !!

xoxo, Hugs & Kisses

~^^ ~

안녕~~ 친구아~~ ♥

This is one post that im really genuinely dreading to type about >< ~~ haha ~~ cause haha :p ~~ ya~~ in case you are reading this (which im not very sure whether u read or not ~ but if read just pretend you didnt ~~ cause i shy /.\ ~~ and i dont usually say this kind of stuff) 

I actually though about it before she left ~~ i was like 'will i miss her?' ~~ cause technically i nvr really kinda had anyone leave me for so long before ~~ when  i was young my dad did go overseas quite often ~~ and i rmb always crying ~~ until it became too frequent and i stopped crying >< ~ but i dont recall it being super long ~~ and that time i was in HK ~~ i kinda didnt really miss home ~~ so ya ~~ i thought bout it ~~ i mean there is something called the internet right ._.

and after all these that happen ~~ i got my answer ~~ i dont wan to tell you ~ but yes i miss you >< ~~ its to a point where i know you are missing cause there are stuff we usually do and you are not there ~~ like during lecture ~~ and then a certain kind of movie that i want to watch ~~ and stuff like that ~~ like stuff that we do ~~ and then its missing you ㅠㅠ ~~ and ya ~~ you not even gone for a month yet ><

Everyone is banned from going overseas for a long time ~~ cause i cannot take it ~~ >:(

Anyway ~~ me and sam and esther went out with eehui on the wed that she was flying ~~ eehui went to fetch me from sch and then we watched frozen ~~ which btw was pretty good ~~ storyline typical disney ~~ but the animation and details were sooo good ~~ anyway then we was suppose to meet esther and sam for dinner ~~ it was so funny cause we actually planned to treat her ~~ but then we were scared that if we eat fast food and stuff then we cannot pay for her ~~ so we will like choose restaurant ~ as long as restaurant its okay !! ~~ so i only thought of Nandos ~~ so we said in front of her then she said no ~~ hahha i wanted to laugh ~~ cause my point was as long its resturant its okay ~~ then i think esther and me look at each other n laugh :p ~~ but yes we still managed to find a restaurant and ate ~~ and waited for sam like 4ever >< ~~ and we were all super hungry~~ then we went to the icebar to eat dessert ^^ ~~ that eehui made ~~ haha the cookie dough thing was nice okay ~~ everyone say its very sweet ~~ its not >:( ~~ i like that :p ~~ hehe ~~ 이회 고마워 ^^/♥ ~~ oh and we played some memory drinking game thingy

\^^/

then me and sam actually thought for quite a while like in dec i think ~~ what we were going to give her ~~ and as usual we think and nvr do ~~ i really shld have start earlier though haha ~~ I decided i will do 100 hearts with messages in these 100 hearts ~~ so you know ~~ she can open when she wants to ~~ i wanted to write all jokes ~~ but wow ~~ i dunno whether is that i dont get the joke or what ~~ i went through like 5 joke books ~~ i only choose like 20 jokes >< ~~ then i was like shld i put motivational messages ~~ but then i dun really like quotes usually too ~~ then i though of drawing cartoons of things we do together ~~ omg ~~ i cannot believe it ~~ but i did it >< !! I managed to draw 50 of those !!! ~~~man ~~ so proud of myself haha ~~ they are not say very pretty but they are cute ~~ and i took photos of all 50 of them ~~ and i want to put it here ~~ but then in case ~~ u are reading ~~ to be safe ~~ not putting it up haha ~~ so total this 50 and 30 jokes and 20 quotes -> 100 hearts *clap for self

♥♥♥

Then i found a box in daiso ~~ to put them in ~~ and daiso had like no boxes left >< !! ~~ what is this ~~ then managed to find one that fit ~~ i was like good !! haha ~~ then i wrote the instruction manual to the box in sch ~~ in the morning of her flight ~~ at least i finished it in time :p haha ~~ then after that i was suppose to write a letter ~~ then it hit me >< ~~ i dunno why also ~~ i started writing the letter ~~ like normally ~~ then halfway ~~ maybe not halfway but a few lines after ~~  i couldnt continue ~~~ cause i started :'( ~~ ya ~~ the lect room got sand i cannot see >< ~~ yes got sand ._. ~~ and i couldnt stop (cause sand kept going in my eye ><) ~~ haiz ~~ i duuno why man ~~ i so drama >< ~~ nvr ever before eh !! ~~ then i had to call esther to come and stop me cause sam was not in sch ~~ thanks esther haha ~~ but ya ~~ wow ~~ so much sand ~~ then i was afraid the same thing may happen in the airport also ~~ but i figured since sand went into my eyes for so long ~~ i probably got no more tears lol >< ~ stupid sand ._.

Pretty box ^^ !!

Then after law ~~ me, sam and esther went to the airport ~~ it was soo funny ~~ cause the three of us were super not wanting to take mrt cause it was very long~~ and eehui said she will be at the airport at 9.30!! ~~ so we took a cab down haha ~~ guess what ~~ we reach airport like 1 hour earlier than the person that is flying off hahaha ~~ it was so funny

Then ya ~~ *insert all the 客套 stuff ~~ then wee kiat came too ~~ then we waited for her to go it ~~ then it was all okay ~~ haha ~~ then suddenly i saw chengmum like want to cry ~~ then i hear sam say '哦, 她哭了!' ~~ then suddenly the aiport very sandy again -.- ~~ i think she didnt see though cause i kinda walk off ~~ very sandy cannot >< ~~ and it would be bad for her to see this ~~  then ya ~~ haiz ~~ really 不舍得 ~~ which is why everyone is banned ~~ cause my heart cannot take it ~~ and i dont like the airport being very sandy ~~ yes sandy >< ~~ then ya ~~ haha

 i think we left around 1am ~~ cause too sandy ~~ need to wait for me >< ~~ imma soorrry ~~ lol ~~ so ya ~~ after the sandiness ~~ we took cab home ~~and yes ~~ that it ~~ the main point was i realized the airport have alot of sand in the air >< ~~ n ppl are banned from going away for a long time

I think you are having fun over there ~~ so its good ^^ !! ~~ take care and have fun k ~~ haha ~~ n say hi to all my 오빠 and 동생 ^^  ~~

친구야~~ 안녕~~  ♥
너무 보고싶어 ~~ ^^/♥

Xoxo, Hugs and Kisses

^^

우와 ~~ 비에이피 축하해 ~~ !!! ^^

WAAAHSJhDKAHKJSBKAKJHVhdkjshfdbvkj ~~ Yes just as the title says ~~ B.A.P Congratz !! ^^ ~~~ WWWOOOOWWWAAAHHH ~~ hahaha yes im very happy ^^ as if it was not obvious enough ~~ Good job guys ~~ imma proud of you all haha ^^ ~~  recognition after so long of constant promoting ~~and i guess this also represent that more people are supporting you guys and im very happy ~~ one step closer to world domination (?) haha :p ~~ and 可以让我放下一点点因为你们证明给观众看了^^ ~~ like sam say im like a mum -.- lol

To be very honest ~~ there is a part of me that do not concern about awards and stuff~~ cause its kinda like a popularity contest / company manipulation ~~ and you never know if there are manipulation or not >< ~~ so i dont take these awards too seriously ~~ if you win ~ I happy ^^ ~~ if you dont ~~ its okay ~~ its sort of like winning an award is an additional bonus (?) ~~ and then again ~~ there is a question of popularity is not equivalent to quality ~~ and stuff ~~ a song that is not suited to the mass population taste may not be a bad song

Unless they themselves really really REALLY wants the awards ~~ like Mr Panda Lee Seungri ~~ yes you 승리오빠 ~~ then i will be quite upset when they dont get it ~~ cause this time B.A.P also promote on twitter to ask for votes ~~ but they didnt win that time >< ~~ but comeon its okay !! you guys got 3 wins !! ~~ thats a start right ^^ ~~ slowly ~~ somemore i went to create melon account for you guys eh ~~ i didnt even created for BB and i created for you all haha  ~~ *whisperCauseBBdontgoshowchampionalso:P

It was so epic the 1st win ~~ cause i juz meet the person to trade photocard ~~ and then llike 15 mins later ~~ the girl text me thanks for trading ~~ then she said FYI b.a.p just got their 1st win ~ then i was like 0.0 ~~ the 0.0 was my face ~~ my brain was "hasjdhkHSAGJDGIWGBJBdaskhdhaskd"  ~~ cause i haven process that i juz got bbang's photocard ~~ then suddenly u told me they win ~~ i couldnt even walk properly eh ~~ like i kept looking at my phone while waking to Daiso (Cause it was the period where i went to buy stuff for Vday) ~~ then i was like cannot concentrate on what i want to buy man ~~ then i want to tweet but twitter kept eating up my tweet -.- ~~ so u saw a girl just walking around in circles at plaza sing >< lol

\^^/ 축하해

Then after a while ~~ it think it took me 30 mins ~~ i have no idea 0.0 ~~ walking in circle while looking at phone makes u dizzy :P ~~ then i begin to process info lol ~~ then i was like oh they won show champ ~~ 80% of me is like still yeah ~~ but the 20% was like ohhh okay show champ~~ cause i think show champ not a very big music program right ~~ but i was still happy that they won ~~ cause they were all so happy haha

And a few days before this win ~~ i saw someone post on tumblr or something that if B.A.P won~~ Babys shld give out sweets and stuff ~~ i dunno whether they gave to friends or stuff but i think some XMM gave to their friends ~~ then i was like 随便说说 ~~ i told sam ~~ if they won inki ~~ then i will do that ~~ give sweets to everyone ~~ then sam was like 'Everyone as in like strangers on the street?!' ~~ then i was like yeah ~~

And WOW ~~ they really did won INKI ~~ I think i was even more happy than their 1st win lol ~~ i mean INKI eh ~~ like ~~ major program ~~ * repeat all the crying/ajshdkbbckj/0.0 ~~ and i was with sam at the time cause we were on the way home from the valentine day celebration thingy ~~  then sam was like ~~ so you are giving sweets now ? ~~ then i was like .... oh ya ~~ wow ~~ ummmm >~<

So although is 随便说说 ~~ one should do she said she will do ~~ sooo ~~ i went to daiso and bought sweets and ziplock bags >< ~~ and i went to type out the reason of why i am doing that and cutted out 75 pieces of paper ~~ cause the ziplock bags was 75 ~~ haha such a weird no ~~ but the point is ~~ i kept my word

/.\

And little did i know this was going to turn out to be an epic thing 0.0 ~~ so i took the above photo and i tweeted all 6 ppl of B.A.P ~~ juz when i finished tweeting ~~ Youngjae tweeted ~~ then i was like oh wow my timing so accurate haha ~~ then i thought so maybe there is chance they will see this ~~ the ironic thing was that i wanted to tweet them the night before when i finish packing ~~ but i was too lazy ~~ and wow lets talk about timing and luck ~~ then after a few minutes ~~ suddenly i got a notification "@BAP_Himchan is now following you " ~~ i was like WHAT ??!!! ~~ then went to spam eehui and dar ~~ then eehui say maybe is a twitter glitch ~~ then i was like oohh okay ~~ then suddenly eehui told me its not a glitch 0.0 ~~ then ~~ i was like 'OMG I SO DO NOT KNOW HOW TO REACT TO THIS O.O!' ~~

After the initial shock ~~ my reaction was like "hahahhahahhah" cause Mr Kim Himchan ~~ reading babys mention and accidentally click and follow me right ~~ cause he accidentally retweeted someone tweet before ~~ hahahahah ~~ so it was half shock and half laughing at him ~~ I'm not delusional to think that he really follow me >< ~~ but the point was ~~ the person he accidentally followed was ME 0.0 !! mannn ~~~ i really dont know how to react >< ~~ the 1st thing i tweeted him was "oppa ~ Gomawo? " hahahaha ~~ but i assume that he did see my tweet and the thing eehui translated for him (Gomawo eehui ^^)

힘찬 오빠 진짜 고마워요 ^^

And i totally dunno how to give out sweets eh ~~ after this whole KHC drama thingy 0.0 ~~ lets just say i didnt know how i was going to do this ~~ then after the whole thingy ~~ i was even more flustered 0.0 ~~ I actually planned to put it on the seats in the lecture hall but i realize 75 was too little to do that ~~ so i decided to just give any one that walk pass me 0.0 ~~ since i was late for lecture i decided to distribute them after lec ~~ and i need time to recover from himchan 0.0 ~~ even till now when im typing this post ~~ it still feel so unbelievable 0.0

So ~~ I would say that at 1st it feel like ~~ umm what am i doing ~~ and after the 2nd and 3rd ~~ when adrenaline took over ~~ it was like Bammm ~~ haha wow ~~  i dont know where i get so much confidence and courage from >< ~~  but i mean ~~ it wasnt that scary or anything ~~ to me its quite like okay ~~ like a normal day (?) lol ~~ is normal day a bit too calm ~~ but ya ~~ i think its due to the adrealine and maybe my high confidence level lol ! ~ and eehui who was with me ~~ juz kept laughing all the way >:|  ~~ haha but at least there was someone walking with me :p ~~ and i got claps from her haha ^^

~ hehe thanks for the tweet ^^ ~

So ya ~~ after i gave out everything ~~ it was like fine ~~ like the whole thing nvr happen ~~ but still ~~ WOW i cant believe i did it 0.0 ~~ and i still cant believe the himchan thing happened !! ~~ actually i was quite happy doing it already ~~ but knowing that himchan kinda saw what i did ~~ it was even more worth it haha ~~ i really hope that even just 1 of the 75 saw the MV and like B.A.P because of it ~~ and i will be really happy ^^

B.A.P ~~ i helped you guys publicize already ~~ although 75 is very little but >< ~~ it was all that i could cause of i didnt have alot of cash then >< ~~ at least its something ^^ ~~ You need to attract people to stay haha ~~ and i nvr do this kind of things for BB eh ~~ 看我那么疼你们 :p

Sounds very chessy ~~ but ya ~~ Me and many many other babys will be behind u guys always ^^ ~~ so your effort and hardwork will be seen by many many more people !! I think what i did was very little compared to what other babys have done for B.A.P ~~ but we are all here for you guys ^^/♥

우리 비에이피 화이팅 !! ^^/♥

XOXO, Hugs & Kisses

♥\^^ 해피 발렌타인데이 ^^/♥

Jajiang !!! Its another festival again ^^ ~~ Happy Valentine day everyone (as usual belated vday haha >< ) ~~ every year this day comes ~~ and i think about what to make for people ~~ you know ~~ being me and not repeating my gifts to anyone haha ~~ i thought bout choc fudge and stuff ~~~ but one fine day i saw this awesome pic of an oreo pop ~~ it looks SOOO pretty when its bitten into ~~ so i decided to  do it (which is not a very good choice >< ~~ lets carry on)

So i decided to go buy oreo ~~ and being me ~~ i bough every single flavour of oreo avaliable haha ~~ so i think i had 6 flavour ~~ Orignal, strawberry, ice cream, golden orea, chocolate, choc peanut butter ~~ cause i wanted to do sort of like a bouquet for those closer to me haha  ~~ so i thought it would be a good idea to have alot of flavour ~~ turns out ~~ i did 12 for each flavour i think ~~ so i total i did 72 oreos 0.0 ~~ WOAH ~~~ like lets just say ~~ i wont be touching oreo anytime soon ><

Naked oreo hehe :P

After the middle of my process of making it ~~ i then realise that i may have done too much 0.0 ~~ like a little late man~~ but i was good that i make too much cause some of the stick began falling out of the oreo -.- ~~ soo ya ~~ lucky i have many to spare ~~  i think i melted choc and washed the bowl like 4 times ~~ i shld prob buy a new metal bowl >< ~~ and this time i tried very hard to temper the choc ~~ it still didnt temper though >< ~~ maybe i should have not bought coventure but the fondue kind ~~ cause it took forever to harder -.- ~~ but it look super pretty when i finished ~ GOOD JOB CHERYL ^^

Decorated oreo \^^/

Because it took like forever for the choc to set ~~ i only wrap it the next morning before class >< ~~ i woke up in the middle of the night to see whether it did harden but it didnt >< ~~ so no choice have to wrap it in the morning ~~ and lets juz say ~~ i really really made alot ~~ cause wrapping took like forever ~~ but i caculate ~~ each bouquet have 7 ~~ 6 flavours and 1 with name ~~ and i made 5 of those ~~ so that like 35 ~~ okay now when i type this ~~ i then realise that 72 was way too much >< ~~ but i think i rejected around 20 oreo pop cause they didnt set properly and like the stick were dropping out ~~

~ tadah ~

The bouquet turned out really pretty though !! like really pretty ~~ soo proud of myself ^^ ~~ and all 5 of them recieved very much love haha ~~ so im really really happy ^^ ~~ it really looks like a bouquet ~~ i actually bought  those kind of paper used to wrap flowers to wrap it ~~ but just by tying them together ~~ it was already so pretty ~~ i do not want to ruin it haha ^^

^^

and after lecture ~~ i went to Xcape (?) ~~ the lock room escape game thingy ~~ with sam, eehui and esther ~~ it was cool~~ it was fun when we actually did stuff ~~ but i think cause we were stuck in the room for very long while waiting for the other group to unlock the door ~~ it was pretty boring ~~ but once we got to do something ~~ it was fun ^^ ~~ and imma so proud of myself ~~ i managed to find a hidden door ^^ ~~ i was like 'wow, cheryl you are awesome' in my head when i figured that out haha ~~ i would probably want to go back if everyone wants to play it again ~~ cause we didnt complete it >< ~~ then after that we went for ramen haha ~~ 

So i guess that its for Vday ~~ ^^ ~~ thanks sam for your handmade blue rose and esther for the M&Ms ~~ but i didnt managed to buy a real blue rose this year :( ~~ that was a bit upsetting ~~ but ya ~~ it was overall a pretty good Vday ~~ ^^ ~~ and i wished bbang happy valentines day too /.\ haha ~~ somemore i knew 발렌타인데이 from riri's tweet :p ~~ at least i typed the 해피 myself ~~ and i didnt type 하피 hahaha :p

oh and ~~ hehehehe ~~ B.A.P valentine day choc video ~~ that was awesome ^^ ~~ *pppppssssss especiallythelastfewsecondsofthevideo /.\ *run away

XOXO, Hugs and Kisses

/.\ hehehe ^^/♥

ItsVdayicanbenotfairandjustputoneperson'sphoto

~ Lady Gaga x Femmex fashion party ~

Tadah ~~ soooo i finally when to Zouk ~~ cause i think most people my age would have already been there~~ haha ~~ before going there i was thinkin about it though ~~ cause i mean i have never been to a club before and like idk ~~ lets just say the concept of clubbing is not particularly attractive to me ~~ but i totally didnt regret going haha ~~

Lets start with how i ended up with the tickets ~~  I was CNY clothes shopping with my mum ~~ then i went into Femmex ~~ i dont go to their store very  often though since i dont usually got to bugis ~~ then i bought a sweater ~~ and then at the counter i saw the event pamphlet ~~ then when i opened it i realize there will tickets attached to it ~~ then i was like take the tixs first and think about it later haha ~~ I was actually thinking about going cause i was held at zouk ~~ i mean it was a free fashion event which is awesome ~~ but its at zouk ~~ so i was still thinking bout going ~~ then i saw ppl selling tixs on twitter 0.0 ~~ but im like the tixs are free ~~ i took it from the store 0.0 ~~ then there were giveaways to win tixs too ~~ then i was like dont go very wasted ~~ i wanted to give them to jolene cause she likes lady gaga n stuff but she couldn't make it~~ thats why i decided to go on the last minute~~

When i first reach zouk i was like 0.0 ~~ so many people OMG 0.0 ~~ and then after a while we finally got in ~~ wow ~~ zouk is really pretty 0.0 ~~ like i was so not expecting it ~~ and the first thing i saw was the runway~~ it was pretty cool and awesome ^^

~Runway ~

Then we went to get our free drink ~~ Chivas i think ~~ i got mine with spirit ^^ ~~ oh i was super nice ^^ ~~ and we stayed at the VIP lounge area haha cause the whole place was opened to sit anywhere since it was a close door event ~~ and the lounge area was a top-down view of the runway so it was a pretty good spot~~ i found out that after hearing a few ppl speak ~~ most of them were there cause of the free drink >< ~~ 

Chivas Mixer

The show was not bad ~~ All the models were blogger or something ~ so they kind of not very good in the catwalk? ~~ but there were a few that could walk really really well !! ~~ the clothes were pretty okay ~~ saw one or two piece that i really like ~~ and there were performance by Darren tan ~~ i really like him from his project superstar day !! ~~ then there was this guy that stood behind me ~~ then he ask when his GF walk out can i move to let him take pic ~~ he say if he didnt take photo ~~ his GF will kill him haha ~~ and when his GF walked out ~~ he screamed super loudly haha so adorable ~~ and he said sorry to me also haha ~~ so interesting~~

^^

Overall the event was not really like a clubbing thing... it was just like a fashion show ~~ so i technically have yet to still experience what clubbing is like ~~ it was cool though~~ when the event ended ~~ they disassembled the stage super fast !! ~~ i think is to make room for the dance floor for the clubbing ppl ~~ we kinda left after the event and did not stay for the clubbing ~~ but it was cool ^^ ~~ i had fun ~~ they gave out goodie bag too ~~ with stickers, pin and a lookbook~~ and a glow stick ^^ ~~ 

~goodie bag~

XOXO, Hugs and Kisses

^^

Happy New Year ?? ~~ Belated New Year :p

I have too much drafts piling up O.O ~~ need to clear all post ASAP haha ~~ lucky now its like recess week !! ~~ so i shld clear as many drafts that i have ~~if i have time that is >< ~~~ since i have a mid-term this sem have to study 0.0

Lets see ~~ New Year 1st ~~ well as always ~~ i spent new year at home ~~ but i think a few days after the new year ~~ my family decided to go on an impromptu trip to Johor ~~ like 3 days 2 nights haha ~~ so it was cool since we didnt go on a holiday in december ~~ and well Johor is still a getaway right :p

We stayed in KSL as like the last time we went to johor ~~ but my dad told me that there was a dinosaur park tickets that was given free with the hotel stay ~~ i was so excited you have no idea ~~ cause i mean ~~ A DINOSAUR THEME PARK ~~ and guess what -.- ~~ turns out ~~ it was juz a small kid pool like park ~~ like wow man ~~ wow ~~ come lets talk about disappointment... but at least there were really cool moving dinosaur figures ~~ that was cool ~~ but comeon ~~ it is no where near like theme park >:|

Very impressive entrance

RAWR

Johor was pretty standard though ~~ we went to Johor Premium Outlet ( or peanut world as my mum pronounce it that one time wrongly haha ) ~~ this time round it was good haha ~~ i got quite a bit of clothing and it was good ~~ cause i mean kinda dont have to worry about CNY ~~ but i bought like skirt and jacket :p ~~ so i mean haha ~~ then again at least i have new clothes ^^ ~~ nothing pretty much happened ~~ juz shopping and stuff ~~ so yeah !! ~~ and i found something really amazing ~~ a coconut ~~ like a round flesh and juice only coconut !! ~~ 0.0 ~~ the guy was so skillful in cutting all the husks off it ~~ and it ended up with a round plop of edible flesh that pop-out of the husk 0.0 ~ super duper awesome

Coconut 0.0

Nxt would be CNY ~~ I never really anticipate CNY alot ~~ cause i have quite a ~~ lets put it 'dramatic' family background and i do not even interact with this one uncle due to reason and i think i only saw him like really once a year no joke ~~ and if that uncle is there ~~ my mum wont be and so on ~~ so ya ~~ CNY is quite umm standard i guess ~~ since i dont really fancy nomnom-ing CNY goodies too ~~ so CNY is just like gambling n angbao ._.

This year CNY was epic though ~~ cause me ~~ yes me ~~ i got a fever 0.0 ~~ i dont even rmb the last time i got a fever ~~ i think it was like super long ago ~~ its so ironic cause dennis gets sick every year during CNY ~~ so i guess this time round ~~~ its me ~~ haha fever somemore ~~ not like a normal cough or flu ~~ n guess what ~~ during the eve of CNY ~~ i heard really loud siren noises ~~ like omg the next moment i saw fire engine entering my condo 0.0 ~~ THEN I SAW POLICE CAR ~~~ OMG i was so scared >< !!! i didnt see any smoke though ~~ but im super confirmed that there must have been a fire in my condo 0.0 ~~ like omg man !! i was so afraid >< ~~ fire is well ~~ fascinating yet terrifying ><

And then there was this lame joke about 马上有钱 ~~ and then dennis took out his horses and did it too haha ~~ it is quite adorable actually ^^ ~~

马上有钱

There is one thing i always see during CNY ~~ is that ppl will post photo of OOTD ~~ haha i think if fine ~~ but it is kinda funny when they put #mandatory ~~ cause my cousin was sayin ' its like people forced you to take the photo and post it on insta' haha ~~ but i wore very colourful and print like for the 1st day ~~ very very jap i would say haha ~~ VERY JAP :p ~~ i did take a photo but did not put it anyway so ~~ here it is haha ~~ #notmandatory

OOTD #notforced :p

The 1st day is pretty basic ~~ gamble and angbao ~~ Second day i went houses without my mum n dad ~~ cause of 'drama' ~~ and i went to visit my uncle dogs ^^ ~~ and then ~~ i met that uncle ~~ and his wife >< ~~ Im not one to really be annoyed but his wife ~~ lets just say ~~ I feel that she is really really not a good person ._. 

♥^^♥

The hightlight of this year CNY would prob be the 3rd day ~~ haha it was so cool !! ~~ I played firecrackers for the 1st time ever !! It is way louder than i expected haha ~~ but it was sooo dope !! we hanged it up at my uncle house in Johor and dennis lit the thing ~~ haha we were all scared at 1st ~~ only one of my uncle where like juz fearless ~~ cause when opening/hanging some of the firework will drop ~~ so you can actually lit a single firecracker~~ and he just lit it and threw it ~~ like wow 0.0 ~~ and since dennis was the bravest one among us ~~ he decided to lit the big one ~~ and he kept hesitating until my uncle went to hold the firecrackers for him to lit it ~~ i mean wow ~~ my uncle is soo brave 0.0 ~~ and then bakbakpakpakbakbakpak hahhaha ~~ it was cool to have at least played it once ^^

^^

The aftermath haha

So i guess that is a very brief summary on new year haha ~~ cause i mean i guess nothing very intresting happen~~ sick/fireworks ~~ shld be the highlights haha ~~ OH YA ~~ and flappy bird yes ~~ flappy bird was ~~ ummm ~~ very time occupying haha >< ~~so yup ~~~ ummm happy belated new year :p

XOXO, Hugs & Kisses

*dance WOOHOO ~~ ONLY ONE SHOT !!!

I wanna dance dance dance dance dance ~~~ Fantastic Baby !!! ~~ haha okay ~~ Im a bit out of my mind (yes a bit) ~~ having lecture now and blaming sam for why i am in sch (as usual) ~~ i really wonder why i bother to come sch even though i dont hear anything the lecturer have to say ~~

So lets talk about me ~ lets talk about you ~~ lets talk about love ~~ hahahahaha  ~~ ahem no ~~ lets talk about end year gayo daejun (or daejoon (?) i dunno ) ~~ 2014 still blogging about 2013 ~~ i am not slow ~~~ i am just .... you know.... creating suspense heheheh ~~~okayIadmitImlazy -.-

There is a reason why I'm blogging about it ~~ cause technically its juz another performance haha ~~~ but there is something else that i want to say ~~ which is why i am doing a post on gayo ~~ sooo i only watch SBS and MBC one ~~ cause BB obviously go for SBS ~~ and then BAP only went for these two ~~ oh yup ^^

Firstly SBS Gayo ~~ it was a bit difficult for me to stream it cause like i was outside that day ~~ and i dont have to worry for GDYB cause i mean ~~ confirm their stage is towards tha back ~~ Im only afraid of missing B.A.P one ~~ and the Hip-hop collab thingy~~ so I kinda open streaming and queue for show luo autograph session at the same time haha ~~ so amazed that I can stream and walk at the same time ~~ it was a shock that mobile streaming was not laggy though ~~ I don't remember much from B.A.P performance ~~ they did a dance intro together right ~~ that was kinda cool ^^ !! ~ then GDYB was cool too ~~ YB sang 1am ~~ I wan that song YG ~~ release his album already !! >:( ~~ then there was  a combine performance thing by everyone at the end ~~ GDYB had soo much screen time in the song hahha ~~ not shock but still very happy ~~ they filmed YB until like angel with the light shining behind him ~~ and wow B.A.P ~~ their screentime ~~ I dun even have time to react and then they are gone -.- ~~ wow ~~ but like ya ~~ still relatively young and from small company ~~I can understand ~  I know a lot of ppl complain about it ~~ but I realize brown eyed girls also has little time ~~ that is more unfair ~~ so ya SBS >:| 

~ GDYB ~

  

The camerawork ~~ wow the camerawork >< !! It was sooo wow >< !! ~~ SBS don't u usually have really good cameraman ?? ~~ wad happened ?? ~~ I was very upset but I was most upset during the Hiphop stage were they TOTALLY didn't film bbang at ALL when it was his part to rap -.- ~~ and then waaaa when GDYB ended ~~ they hugged ~~ and what did u film ?? Their feets from under the stage -.- ~~ wow I get it ~~ they have nice shoes and ur stage is cool ._. 

How can you miss this kind of moment -.-

Cr: With-gdragon

I usually really like SBS cause they are really good with BB ~~ u may say a little bias ~~ BB inki stage time allowance ~~ and many more ~~ but there is a rumor that SBS was rude to a lot of people ~~ I'm takin it with a grain of salt cause u nvr know if it is true ~~ but they were like 'who is bap' and they were rude to babyz and many other fans ~~ wow -.- ~~ that is so unprofessional of SBS~~ i mean even if a band who is not famous were to go to your show ~~ you shld at least know that there is that band ~~ its like if a reporter were to write a report about B.A.P ~~ they may not have to recognize who is who ~~ but they shld know that they are a kpop boy band and there are 6 members~~ so i am upset and disappointed at them >:(

~B.A.P~

Now to MBC Gayo ~~ I was so proud of jongup having a dance solo haha ~~ i think i nvr seen them with a solo stage before with the exception of Bbang ~~ or maybe i forgot ~~ but jongup looks cool in his solo ^^ 

Sooo the main point of why i am writing this post ~~ is because im a bit upset ~~ okay maybe more than a bit upset ~~ >< ~~ because what i was really looking forward to was the hip-hop collaboration ~~ I even made sam alight the MRT cause the stream was soooo not loading underground when their performance was coming ~~ *hehehe thank you sam ~~~ but i was a bit disappointed at it ~~ the stage overall was pretty good though ~~ although it is a bit messy and stuff ~~ and camera !!! yes the camera ~~~ AGAIN -.- ~~~ i mean Bbang only got like have such a little part ~~ and when he did his part ~~ U TOTALLY NO CAPTURE HIM!!! SERIOUSLY -.- ~~~ imma upset man ~~ :( ~~ i mean not only him but zico/baro/rap monster ~~ all only have a little part too ~~ I'm actually not very upset about them having a little part ~~ Im more upset over other stuff ~~ but it was good to see him enjoying himself on stage :) ~~ he seems to really have fun over it.

Cr: Killerbang 

What im really upset about Tiger Jk treated the performance >:( !! ~~ i mean i can understand that there will be may fans that will anticipate the performance cause their idol are performing in it ~~and they will be upset cause their idol didnt get alot of showtimes ~~ because i myself thought it will be more like random rap combination performance together ~~ something like epik high/ dynamic duo/ simon D did before ~~ so i can understand how Tiger Jk wan to make it clear that their performance time wont be alot ~~ and like how it more of a show-up ~~ but the way he put it was upsetting ~~ 

It was already upsetting enough that SBS state it was a collab but it technically was not really ~~ Tiger Jk wrote on his twitter that the performance was not a collab ~~ but more like a cameo to support MFBTY ~~ okay ~~ cameo ~~ seriously ~~ cameo >:( ~~ i know it may not be such a big deal but to me it kind of is ~~ like how bbang name is not really under producer in the album ~~ Cameo is quite a not very good way to put things ~~ and he being someone who do hiphop/music shld know this well ~~ which is why u see in alot of hiphop track they put 'Featuring"/Feat instead ~~ and like even if someone have a short appearance in a film ~~ featuring is also used instead of cameo ~~ it is a professional courtesy thing~~ so i dunno ~~ i m very upset by maybe his usage of words ~~ cause i mean idk ~~ it sounds very 自大 to me ~~ like 'look they are juz hear to support me that's it' ~~ it could be that they all really have fun and enjoy it ~~ but i thought he could have been more careful of his choice of words ~~i mean for someone that stood up to music  ~~ he definitely shld have know the diff between cameo n feat ~~ so ya ~~ i was very upset :(

Anyway ~~ this post took be damm long to complete haha ~~cause it keep sitting in my draft and i didnt have time to finish it ~~ but ya ~~ i still have quite a lot to blog about ~~ they are all in my draft ~~ but i have other things to do ~~ sooo haha willl blog when im more free (?) ~~ :p

XOXO, Hugs and Kisses

~~ 2 Years with Best.Absolute.Perfect ~~

안녕하세요~ 우린 비에이피 ~ Yes Sir !! 반갑습니다 ~ haha yes nice to meet you guys indeed ~~ (such a smart way to start this haha :p ) ~~ anyway ~~ as i said in my BB post last year ~~ i would dedicate a post to these 6 boys during their anniversary ~~ so this is me keeping my promise !! *clap clap 

Happy 2nd year anniversary 밥 ~~ hehehe ~~ it has only been two years but it feels longer than two years ~~ but yet sometimes i still think they are a very young band ~~ Technically speaking they are not that young after all ~~ i mean look at the influx of bands nowadays ~~ but to me ~~ there are still very young and fragile haha ~~ soo not in a position like rookies but newcomer ?? ~~ i dunno how to explain haha 

With B.A.P ~~ my journey with them is quite different i would say ~~ I never thought that i would have like really really like another band quite as much as Bigbang ~ With B.A.P~~ i never went through the stage of spazz(?) / fangirl when i watch their video ~~ like i did with BB when I 1st saw them ~~ With BB it was always like 'wow they are doing their thing and being awesome' when i see them on stage ~~ but i have sort of a protective mindset over B.A.P (maybe cause got dongsaeng?)  ~~ i wont be extremely harsh on them but when they do well or perform well i would be very proud~~ In fact i think im harsher with BB than with B.A.P haha ~~ when I see BB live in concert ~~ i was like '我哥哥们真的很厉害' ~~ but when i saw B.A.P in concert ~~ i was like ' I am so proud of them doing this ' with a little of ' wow Zelo is really REALLY good ' ~~ maybe to me ~~ success comes very easily for BB now (cause they already been through alot and proof themselves) ~~ i mean they are such an established band ~~ but for B.A.P ~~ i really want them to go far and support them to reach success to the point where i can safely let go ~~ not quit fandom but ~~ for them to be like BB and achieve success and recognition everywhere

27/1/2012-27/1/2014

Just similar to how Gtop bought me into BB ~~ someone bought me into B.A.P as well ~~ but it was soo different ~~ I like Gtop music and thus i heard BB and i like them too ~~ for them ~~ one fine day i heard this guy rap ~~ and i was like ~~ wow ~~ like WOW ~~ and the hoodie over his head was a big bonus too :p ~~ but i didnt pay that much attention ~~ then 'I Remember' came out ~~ woah ~~ woah ~~ red hair too ~~ n the MV was so awesome ~~ i remebered telling everyone to watch this mv ~~ cause i thought the mv itself was really nice ~~ and then i recall seeing this guy before ~~ then i was like WOAH ~~ need to pay attention ~~ cause i really like how he sound ~~ then one fine day my friend told me that he was going to be in a group and i was so upset ~~ cause at that time kpop group to me is all like you know SHINee ~~ not that i have anything against them but they are not my style ~~ then Bang&Zelo came out ~~ the teaser ~~ WOAH ~~ i was so happy for the teaser ~~ and then 'Never give up' ~~ wow wow wow ~~ i was totally not expecting it ~~ like i was sooooo disappointed ~~ but suddenly B.A.P teaser came out ~~ so i was like if the mv is turning out to be so diff from the teaser ~~ imma just be majorly upset ~~ but it didnt haha ~~ so which is why im typing this now~~ ^^

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B.A.P also went through a hit and pass with me ~~ i almost stop during Power era ~~ but im glad i didnt ~~ although it is a bit financially difficult to be supporting two bands >< ~~ especially with them releasing so many albums at once ~~ but i got a very good feeling about them ~~ i see that many people are slowly giving up on them cause they may have not achieve what other group that debut at the same time have ~~ all the xmm are like they are still the kings but they wan people to know that they are kings  ~~ but those older than me are so upset that they are not on par with other groups ~~ too me ~~ i think they are still very young ~~ give them a few more years ~~ Im sure they can prove that they are really awesome to many people in the future~~

Bbang 's determination and dedication make me really glued to the group ~ his beliefs and views are really something ~~ and i am waiting for the day where he will release an album that he really wants to release and there will be no restriction from the company ~~Himchan ~~ Oppa im sorry >< ~~ i dont really pay that much attention to you compared to others cause ~~ erm u not dongsaeng ~~ and there yongguk >< ~~ haha but i was waiting for a day where your voice really shine ~~ and i found it in '1004' teaser ~~ i was so amazed ^^ ~~ and you please take care of urself ~~ same for ur chingu ~~ eat more >< ~~ Daehyun ah ~~ you also take care of urself ~~ with all the long notes pulling ~~ ur voice must really take care cause once you are not careful :( ~~ Ya ~~~ Youngjae ~~ you relax a bit haha ~~ i feel very contradicted with you ~~ sometimes u very stern/serious ~~ sometimes u very crazy and loose ~~ haha i dunno ~~ and you ~~ 越来越帅哦~~  jonguppie ~~ hehe ~~ i think i abit 疼  you the most ~~ must be the same age as my brother thing ~~ that moment when u got a solo in gayo i was soo proud haha ~~ and sometimes i feel that you should have a bit more confidence in urself~~ but \^^/ yeah jongup ~~ and zelo ~~ junhong i think u are juz one awesome dude ~~ so young yet u do so well ~~ stage presence ~~ photo presence ~~ everything ~~ but dont hurry up to grow up k ~~ cause i got a vibe from you like a bit 小大人 ~~ but in general ~~ B.A.P ~~ waiting for one day that you guys are able to control the stage really well ^^

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B.A.P have bought me many new experiences too ~~ 1st overseas concert in Hong Kong ~~ haha that was crazy packing lightstick there and stuff ~~ a totally different concert experience both in HK and SG ~~ my 1st press con that i went ~~~ that was sooo crazy i genuinely wanted to juz leave the venue~~ i mean please do know when to keep quiet >< ~~ B.A.P got me a bias which i thought was not very possible ~~ haha ~~ B.A.P like BB allow me to make friends too ~~ but B.A.P got me cross country friends ~~ that was pretty different haha ~~ and as much as i dont wan to say this cause i dunno whether you read my blog often haha ~~ B.A.P is kinda like one of the reason why eehui and me became pretty close ~~ cause i mean we talk about them very often ~~ Im really lucky to have friends that like the same band ~~

Anyway B.A.P is still young ~~ dont ask me to choose between BB and B.A.P ~~ because its really not possible ~~ although some times it may seem that i like BB more than them or the other way around ~~ but lets put it this way ~~ I am proud of BB but I 疼 B.A.P (?) ~~ i dunno haha ~~ to be fair ~~ i was with BB longer but i have been with B.A.P from the very beginning ~~ give them time ~~ i keep sayin this ~~~ but really give them time ~~ you will never know what they may turn out to be ~~ and its gonna be a good one~~ ^^ ~~ their 1st album is coming out too ~~ after hearing the medley today ~~ im anticipating ~~~ hehehe 화이팅!!

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방용국 김힘찬 정대현 유영재 문종업 최준홍 비에이피

사랑해 ~~

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Happy 2nd year anniversary ^^

Ahem ~~ 용국오빠 ~~ hehehe  /.\ ~~ ^^/♥

Hugs and Kisses, xoxo

Merry Christmas ~ and a Happy new year ~~

hahahaha ~~~ this is sooo late ~~ but hahaha ermmm ~~ Merry Christmas ??  ~~ haha my favourite holidays like EVAR!!

This year i spent Christmas in SG~~ which is a change since usually i would be in HK/Shenzhen at this timing ~~ so it is exciting since i get to put up a Christmas tree ^^ !! ~~ i cant remember when was the last time that i put up a christmas tree ~~ i like Christmas tree soo much ^^ !! haha and of course the presents that comes underneath it 

~Soo many presents ^^ ~

This year was fun~~ and tiring as well ~~ i ALMOST died in orchard road ~~ YES DIED !!~~~ from shopping ~~ OMG wow ~~ soo much people i cannot man ~~ wow ~~ lesson learnt ~~ shall go xmas shopping WAY earlier next year~~ and since im in SG this year ~~ i decided to do a little surprise for everyone haha ~~ and it worked out great ^^ hehe

I decided to make a snowglobe ~~ and wow ~~ my clay and my oven kinda spoilt -.- ~~ my clay were super hard and the clay softener did nothing to soften it ~~ then halfway my oven spoilt !!! ~~ oh my >< the wire was loose or something and it kept turning off and on ~~ and i burnt the clay -.- ~~ haiz what a wrong timing ~~ i wanted to go shopping for small figurines to put in the snowglobe but i couldnt find any ~~ and i was pretty poor at that time too haha ~~ so have to make do with the clay ~~ but im glad it turned out fine ^^ ~~ and the fake snow is sooo soooo pretty!!!

I wanted to buy stockings too ~~ but i couldnt find one of an appropriate size ~~ so i ended up sewing them~~ and lets just say my sewing skills is still... hmm .... need improving ~~ haha ~~ i nvr did so many things at one go and i kind of overestimated myself with the time~~ its okay when u do one ~~ but when you do 3 ~~ its >< wow ~~ i was so worried it wouldnt arrive before xmas !!! ~~ cause you know mail during the season ~~ wow but singpost is so efficient !! ~~~and i am so happy that the response was good ^^ !! haha SURPRISE !! It must feel really good to receive something by mail during xmas ♥ ~ so i felt really happy doing it ^^ 

And i made cards also ~~ for my family too ^^ ~~ and put it at their bedside ~~ hehe so surprise too !!! ~~ so proud of myself :P ~~ this year was a good xmas~~

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TADAH !!!

Xmas was sooo awesome ^^ ~~ opening the gifts at midnight !! ~~ thanks to everyone that got me gifts ~~ whether it was belated or not ~~ thank you !! ^^ ~~ and wow ~~ dennis bought me earphones on top stuff he already bought for me ~~ i was soooooo touched :') ~~ cause he said his beats were lousy and like he wanted me to have something good ~~ and wow ~~ just wow ~~SOOooo happy ^^

And Christmas morning came ~~ and TADAH!!! Xmas cake ^^ !! hehehhehehehhehehehheeh~~~ and i did managed to get the snowman cake that i wanted ~~ my dad did ordered it in the end !! and it taste good eh ~~ i nvr though polar cakes to be good ~~ but this cake was good !!! and its so adorable ^^~~

SNOWMAN!!

Since my relatives came over for Christmas ~~ we spent Christmas showing them around ~~MBS and stuff ~~ and went to eat at night in Town ~~ and they were SOOO many people there !! ~~ and i met a really cool guy there ~~ he was on the street holding up a sign ' say what i can do to make ur day ' ~~ and like no one was paying any attention to him at all ~~ which was really sad ~~ i stop my family and i walked towards him ~~ i asked him ' so i tell you what you can do to make my day and you will do it' ~ he say that he would try ~~ so i asked him to sing me a christmas song ~~ then he said he cant really sing and he dont know any xmas songs haha ~~ then i ask him why he was doing this ~~ then he said he wanted to just give back to the community in his own way ~~ after much persuation he still didnt sing ~~ so i asked him for a hug instead haha ~~ he was so nice and even offered to buy a drink for my cousin ~~ that was really cool of his to do it ~~ ^^

Then the next day ~~ i bought my cousin to USS and the adults went around sentosa ~~ USS is still the same haha ~~ but i didnt know the roller-coaster were close down ~ >< ~!!! that was soooo upsetting ~~ and they changed the track of the Mummy roller-coaster to a shorter route ~~ Dennis was so disappointed >< !! i was too~~~ and it was so sad that i couldnt allow my cousin to sit on the rollercoaster :( ~~ then my uncle took alot of photos and we also did a mandatory shot (-.- yes mandatory) in front of the USS globe ~~ and wow i didnt realize this ~~ but Dennis is SOOO TALL 0.0 !! look at the height difference !!

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So Chirstmas this year was really awesome~~ but SG really lack Christmas decoration though ~~ Hong kong ones were really pretty ~~ and i thought orchard deco were a bit lacking :( ~~but still it was good ^^ ~~ i can spend Xmas with my friends which was something that was awesome ~~ although i do miss HK Disneyland fake snow and Christmas spirit ~~ USS did not really have any Christmas atmosphere at all >< !! so sad ~~ but still it was a good Christmas !! with the tree and the presents and the friends and family ~~ and not forgetting all the gingerbread mans that i bought *cough or made my parents buy for me *cough ~~ it was a holiday filled with love ^^♥♥♥

XOXO, Hugs and Kisses

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