GDYBRI ~~~ Thinking of you ~~~

\^^/ ~~ okay to be more honest ~~ maybe it not too much \^^/ ~~ haiz bigbang how ~~ i dunno where i stand with you guys ><  ~~ 不是不爱你们了~~ 你们五个无论如何都是我的哥哥~~ 超级无敌厉害到要死的哥哥们 :P ~~ 不管去哪里都有人在你们后面尖叫的哥哥们 ~~ 让我这个妹妹很骄傲的哥哥们~~ 可是 ~~ 新的粉丝/幼稚的粉丝真的让我很想把你们放下 ~~ 上个演唱会我有想过把你们放下~~ 可是那时我以为是说说而已~~ 但我去了这个见面会 ~~ 才知道上次不只是说说而已 ~~ 我整个人被粉丝和主办单位搞到很没有心情 ~~ 然后见到你们 ~~ 心情也没有变的特别好 ~~ 不是不喜欢你们了~~ 我自己也不知道 ~~ 怎么办 >< 我心情好乱 ~~ ><

Anyway ~~ the day started off with queuing as usual ~~ actually to be exact ~~ the day before the fanmeet ~~ overnight again ~~ haha ~~ im actually quite fine with queuing overnight cause like ~~ i enjoy being out late at night where the surrounding are all quiet and I'm walking around ~~ its like everything around me stops ~~ so the only time I am able to do this is when i queue overnight for concert ~~ but everytime i queue i also think i very dumb for queuing cause like >< ~~ you know ~~ i could be at home sleeping haha ~~ so i was like around 15th person in the queue ~~ and guess who was 1st ~~ the one that started the queue since wed ~~ the same bunch of people ~~ seriously -.- ~~ i knew it !! ~~ the one that spoil market (?) as ppl call it haha ~~ they started super early for F1 too ~~ haiz i dont even want to talk about it ~~ everything that needs to said has already been said ~~

^^

Anyway ~~ on that sat ~~ it was CRAZY !! ~~  cause you know what ~~ ticketing for LOE was on that day too >< ~~ like wow ~~ actually i was still okay with it ~~ cause i thought there was a sistic counter at indoor stadium ~~ GUESS WHAT ~~ IT CLOSE DOWN >< ~~ wow wow wow ~~ at first i was still like ~~ okay i can queue for BB n B.A.P at the same day ~~ then sistic -.- ~~ whhhhyyyyyy u close at indoor stadium :( ~~~ haiz >< ~~ so i decided that i will travel down to millenia walk sistic to get tixs the next morning ~~ but that morning i check twitter and i realize there were already 2-3 ppl waiting  ~~ then i was like >< haiz ~~ luckily i suddenly remembered my friend told me that were a sistic counter at bras basah and no one goes there cause no one kinda knows bout it ~~ so i went there ~~ and indeed i was the 1st person at the counter~~

Since the sistic person told me to go to the counter at 12 when the ticketing is release , i found a place near the sistic counter to sit down ~~ then there was this lady (?) that was wondering around sistic ~~ i didnt assume she was going for LOE cause i mean like babys are usually of a younger age (?) ~~ if i was queuing for BB i would like ask her immediately ~~ then after a while I went to ask her ~~ then she was so fierce >< ~~ :'( ~~~ but long story short ~~ i still got to be first in line ~~ and let me tell you ~~ sistic counter is absolutely useless >< ~~ the tickets sales was CRAZY !!! ~~ I couldnt even click the any tickets in cat one !! CRAZY ~~ even for BB i think it wasnt this bad !! ~~ I panic so much >< ~~ i was almost like ~~ i dont want to go anymore ~~ bye bye B.A.P :'( ~~ but wowwowwowwowwow !!! wee kiat is one awesome dude !! He managed to get tixs on HOTSPOT !!! HOTSPOT PPL !! omg ~~~ THANK YOU SO MUCH ^^ !!! ~~~ omg when i got back to queue i kept shaking him like mad !! HE'S AWESOME !! n not only that he got seats !! he got like really front seats !! 0.0 ~~ and he managed to get two more pair for eehui's friend !! ~~ wow ~~ i dont know how he did it !! AMAZING !! and yes MUST THANK TO SAM's HOTSPOT OKAY SAM ??? hahaha ~~ yes sam is AWESOME too :P

Okay back to BB ~~ yes then another annoying thing happen ~~ whats is with the fandom seriously !! ~~ i miss the calm era :( ~~ i dont even feel like typing it out ~~ long story short ~~ super chaotic ~~ if ppl were trampled on im not surprised ~~ zero crowd control ~~ ppl lost the list and then LUCKILY found it again ~~ then ppl shouting at ppl ~~ and irresponsible ppl and rude ppl ~~ and just a huge big mess >< ~~ 

Anyway ~~ the organizers gave us piece of paper to write our details in ~~ i got a feeling its for like the picking of fans from the mosh pit ~~ i was right haha ~~ they left a space for us to write message but i doubt GDYBRI will read them too ~~ but just for fun ~~~ and i actually wrote stuff at the back and ~~~ haha i shall not translate it ~~ if not ppl will faint :O 

~아이이이잉~ haha

Then we entered ~~ but my mood was already very spoilt >:( ~~ haiz ~~ but ya ~~ we got the 1st row of the mosh pit ~~ but the pit was really very small ~~ and they were quite alot of empty seats all round >< ~~ haiz ~~ this event really ~~ haiz ~~ and it was suppose to be 2 hrs ~~ but i think it was around 1hr 30 mins only ~~ then i think we stood in the pit for around 1hr too before the event started ~~ then the mv that they were showing was all 2ne1 ~~ for like 30 mins ~~ i was a bit upset about that too ~~

Then dee kosh came out and hosted the fanmeet that lasted around 30 mins ~~ they picked ppl to go on stage and then GDYBRI have to dress them up according to certain theme ~~ it was quite fun to watch them haha ~~ GD totally like flop haha :P ~~ his theme was cute ~~ then he dressed the girl to look like harry potter ~~ really 오빠 ?? ~~ harry potter haha ~~ YB got hip-hop which he did a very good job in ~~ and what about maknae ~~ haha he got sexy !! and wow ~~ you ~~ he gave the girl a whip ~~ then he ask the girl to hit him o.O ~~ someone a bit too excited ah :P ~~ GDYBRI also twerk /.\ ~~ wow ~~ i have to say although i don't like the way dee kosh portray himself ~~ he is a pretty good host ~~ haha

~tadah ~

Then 3 of them performed solo songs and then for the encore ~~ they came out to sing bad boy n fantastic baby ~~ seungri was ~~ as usual ~~ the best to us haha ~~ he was like 'I dont care GD, I want to talk' 'You guys pay good money to see me so i must talk !' ~~ yes ~~ we love you too ~ haha ~~ his english improved ALOT too~~ so proud of him haha !! ~~ not bad ~~ learning english, chinese and jap !! 오빠 ~~ 잘했어요!! haha ~~ when i went back to hear the recording ~~ haha it was so awesome !!

And we also got a free shirt after the event with GDYBRI printed autograph on it ~~ cause ppl complain tixs were too expensive >< ~~ so ya ~

^^

Did i enjoy myself after the fanmeet? I really dont know to be honest ~~ prob because the other things spoilt my mood ~~ you can see i type this also like half hearted ~~ haiz ~~ bigbang how ~~ idk >< ~~ hhhoooowwww ~~ i actually 放空 during the concert >< ~~ what is this >< !! ~~ i know you cant blame BB ~~ but i really think the fans affect me alot ~~ dont get me started with the local fanbase also >< ~~ haiz !!! 不知道不知道不知道不知道 >< !!! 난 몰라 >< maybe ~~ idk ~~ haiz ~~ lets just not go on ~~

XOXO, Hugs & Kisses

사랑해요 오빠  ~ 

하지만...

난 진짜 몰라 ><

要到什么时候才会结束。。。

再一次。。。又哭了。。。

到底要哭到什么时候。。。

原本以为过了初中就不会这样了，没想到大学也没有好到哪里去。一开始的眼泪直到今日都还没流完吗？一次又一次的心里折磨，我也受不了了。眼泪流的不只是伤心和心痛，也流着愤怒、后悔、盲目和愚蠢。

伤心和心痛， 因为无法忍受自己没办法追求梦想。

后悔， 因为或许自己再努力一点，今天就不会这样。

愤怒， 因为或许自己不够好，没有能力，没有勇气。

盲目，因为心以麻木了。

愚蠢，因为又不是第一次。

这是我的问题吗？或许我真的不行。。。

社会眼中的我，一定很不好吧。我不会读书， 也不会跟着规矩走。不是一个理想的公民吧。你们要我读书，我也尽量配合了。让一个完全坐不住的人，把自己捆起来为了读书。我已经很尽量的跟着你们的规矩了。难到你们不能体谅一下我的感受吗？

从小到大因为跟一般人的想法不一样，老是被人批评、取笑。为了配合大家，我也曾经把自己藏起来。但是为何我要那么做呢。跟大家不一样就是错的吗？难道这个社会上没有我存在的位子吗。我不想再说了，也不想再一次有一次的解释我自己了。因为我已不在乎了。

我已经很尽量的面对了。一直逃避责任、逃避现实的我，一点一点努力的走向社会。可是不管我多么努力，后果还是一样。在社会的眼里，我还是不成功的。

可能有一天，我真的会放弃。不是没有梦想了，而是因为恐怕我坚持不下去了。

我也是人，也拥有着脆弱的心。

我真的不想再哭了。。。

没力气了。。。

累了。。。

可能有一天，陈韵馨不会存在了。

~~ 나 오 늘 미치GO ~~~ 싶어 yeah \^^/

Come on girls ~~ come on boys ~~ come on come on ~~ get your crayon crayon ~~ haha ~~ crayon was the previous previous album right~~ hmm i shld prob sing the newer album ~~ umm ~~ this is my coup de tat ~~ hahaha ~~ THE REVOLUTION IS HERE !!

okay ~~ so hahaha ~~ Kwon Jiyong \^^/ ~~ me and sam went to watch OOAK 3D movie in cinema ~~ second BB movie after alive in HK ~~

So we began buying tickets as always haha ~~ and we choose to watch at GV Marina ~~ cause i thought most ppl would choose there too and it would be quite high ~~ i was sooo wrong >< ~~ soooo wrong !! ~~ anyway there was a standee outside the cinema ~~ and we took photo with it ~~ I bought both ver 3/4 of my lightstick and sam got version 4 ~~ and i even brough GD world slogan !! ~~ cause since i got it haha ~~ for fun :P

\^^/

Then we all went into the cinema ~~ it think just similar to Alive ~~  cause i think they took the footage from the DVD ~~ so for this i think it would be the same footage as the DVD also ~~ the 1st thing i noticed was that no one around us actually brought lightstick 0.0 ~~ and i think only 2 other ppl other than us bought lightstick 0.0 ~~ oh wow ~~ I suddenly feel that HK was so much better ~~ at least ppl on lightstick and even though they did not wave them ~~ there was this girl behind me thinking of whether to on hers ~~ then i turn behind and told her to on it ~~ haha ~~ yes i did that ~~ but then still :( ~~ the atmosphere was like >< ~~ the person beside sam was like annoyed that we had lightstick ~~ but then ~~ haiz

I was so upset that i didnt really enjoyed myself too ~~ mostly because of the lightstick thing~~ furthermore ~~ most ppl seem not to know GD previous songs from Heartbreaker ~~ like she's gone and stuff ~~ cause only like OOAK/Crayon ~~ received reaction from the crowd ~~ haiz >< ~~ 

~only us with crowns~

Why so serious ~~ yes why so serious ppl ~~ lol ~~ most people were soo tense >< ~~ haiz ~~ maybe next time i will choose seats at the last row ~~ so that we turn on our lightsticks also no one will see >< ~~ but i made friends with the girl with the lightstick behind me ^^ ~~ haha that was one happy thing that came out of it~~

This sat ~~ will be GDYBRI FM ~~ and i was soo excited for it ~~ but not anymore >< ~~ the organizers haiz ~~ it is suppose to be organized by One production and Launch ~~ shldnt Launch be a really good organizer ?  ~~ and like ~~ sudden changed of seating plan ~~ up till now still never release info about the diff in the GA1/GA2 for the pit even though they said they will ~~ merch list too ~~ like really >< haiz ~~ i hope it all goes well on that day ~~ oh did i mentioned ~~~ the host for the event >< ~~ i really do not like him haiz ~~ >< ~~ i was originally so excited ~~ but now :( ~~ i hope it will still be as fun ~~ Panda Lee riri ~~ plz make it fun ~ haha ~~ im counting on you !!

xoxo, Hugs & Kisses

~^^ ~

안녕~~ 친구아~~ ♥

This is one post that im really genuinely dreading to type about >< ~~ haha ~~ cause haha :p ~~ ya~~ in case you are reading this (which im not very sure whether u read or not ~ but if read just pretend you didnt ~~ cause i shy /.\ ~~ and i dont usually say this kind of stuff) 

I actually though about it before she left ~~ i was like 'will i miss her?' ~~ cause technically i nvr really kinda had anyone leave me for so long before ~~ when  i was young my dad did go overseas quite often ~~ and i rmb always crying ~~ until it became too frequent and i stopped crying >< ~ but i dont recall it being super long ~~ and that time i was in HK ~~ i kinda didnt really miss home ~~ so ya ~~ i thought bout it ~~ i mean there is something called the internet right ._.

and after all these that happen ~~ i got my answer ~~ i dont wan to tell you ~ but yes i miss you >< ~~ its to a point where i know you are missing cause there are stuff we usually do and you are not there ~~ like during lecture ~~ and then a certain kind of movie that i want to watch ~~ and stuff like that ~~ like stuff that we do ~~ and then its missing you ㅠㅠ ~~ and ya ~~ you not even gone for a month yet ><

Everyone is banned from going overseas for a long time ~~ cause i cannot take it ~~ >:(

Anyway ~~ me and sam and esther went out with eehui on the wed that she was flying ~~ eehui went to fetch me from sch and then we watched frozen ~~ which btw was pretty good ~~ storyline typical disney ~~ but the animation and details were sooo good ~~ anyway then we was suppose to meet esther and sam for dinner ~~ it was so funny cause we actually planned to treat her ~~ but then we were scared that if we eat fast food and stuff then we cannot pay for her ~~ so we will like choose restaurant ~ as long as restaurant its okay !! ~~ so i only thought of Nandos ~~ so we said in front of her then she said no ~~ hahha i wanted to laugh ~~ cause my point was as long its resturant its okay ~~ then i think esther and me look at each other n laugh :p ~~ but yes we still managed to find a restaurant and ate ~~ and waited for sam like 4ever >< ~~ and we were all super hungry~~ then we went to the icebar to eat dessert ^^ ~~ that eehui made ~~ haha the cookie dough thing was nice okay ~~ everyone say its very sweet ~~ its not >:( ~~ i like that :p ~~ hehe ~~ 이회 고마워 ^^/♥ ~~ oh and we played some memory drinking game thingy

\^^/

then me and sam actually thought for quite a while like in dec i think ~~ what we were going to give her ~~ and as usual we think and nvr do ~~ i really shld have start earlier though haha ~~ I decided i will do 100 hearts with messages in these 100 hearts ~~ so you know ~~ she can open when she wants to ~~ i wanted to write all jokes ~~ but wow ~~ i dunno whether is that i dont get the joke or what ~~ i went through like 5 joke books ~~ i only choose like 20 jokes >< ~~ then i was like shld i put motivational messages ~~ but then i dun really like quotes usually too ~~ then i though of drawing cartoons of things we do together ~~ omg ~~ i cannot believe it ~~ but i did it >< !! I managed to draw 50 of those !!! ~~~man ~~ so proud of myself haha ~~ they are not say very pretty but they are cute ~~ and i took photos of all 50 of them ~~ and i want to put it here ~~ but then in case ~~ u are reading ~~ to be safe ~~ not putting it up haha ~~ so total this 50 and 30 jokes and 20 quotes -> 100 hearts *clap for self

♥♥♥

Then i found a box in daiso ~~ to put them in ~~ and daiso had like no boxes left >< !! ~~ what is this ~~ then managed to find one that fit ~~ i was like good !! haha ~~ then i wrote the instruction manual to the box in sch ~~ in the morning of her flight ~~ at least i finished it in time :p haha ~~ then after that i was suppose to write a letter ~~ then it hit me >< ~~ i dunno why also ~~ i started writing the letter ~~ like normally ~~ then halfway ~~ maybe not halfway but a few lines after ~~  i couldnt continue ~~~ cause i started :'( ~~ ya ~~ the lect room got sand i cannot see >< ~~ yes got sand ._. ~~ and i couldnt stop (cause sand kept going in my eye ><) ~~ haiz ~~ i duuno why man ~~ i so drama >< ~~ nvr ever before eh !! ~~ then i had to call esther to come and stop me cause sam was not in sch ~~ thanks esther haha ~~ but ya ~~ wow ~~ so much sand ~~ then i was afraid the same thing may happen in the airport also ~~ but i figured since sand went into my eyes for so long ~~ i probably got no more tears lol >< ~ stupid sand ._.

Pretty box ^^ !!

Then after law ~~ me, sam and esther went to the airport ~~ it was soo funny ~~ cause the three of us were super not wanting to take mrt cause it was very long~~ and eehui said she will be at the airport at 9.30!! ~~ so we took a cab down haha ~~ guess what ~~ we reach airport like 1 hour earlier than the person that is flying off hahaha ~~ it was so funny

Then ya ~~ *insert all the 客套 stuff ~~ then wee kiat came too ~~ then we waited for her to go it ~~ then it was all okay ~~ haha ~~ then suddenly i saw chengmum like want to cry ~~ then i hear sam say '哦, 她哭了!' ~~ then suddenly the aiport very sandy again -.- ~~ i think she didnt see though cause i kinda walk off ~~ very sandy cannot >< ~~ and it would be bad for her to see this ~~  then ya ~~ haiz ~~ really 不舍得 ~~ which is why everyone is banned ~~ cause my heart cannot take it ~~ and i dont like the airport being very sandy ~~ yes sandy >< ~~ then ya ~~ haha

 i think we left around 1am ~~ cause too sandy ~~ need to wait for me >< ~~ imma soorrry ~~ lol ~~ so ya ~~ after the sandiness ~~ we took cab home ~~and yes ~~ that it ~~ the main point was i realized the airport have alot of sand in the air >< ~~ n ppl are banned from going away for a long time

I think you are having fun over there ~~ so its good ^^ !! ~~ take care and have fun k ~~ haha ~~ n say hi to all my 오빠 and 동생 ^^  ~~

친구야~~ 안녕~~  ♥
너무 보고싶어 ~~ ^^/♥

Xoxo, Hugs and Kisses

^^

우와 ~~ 비에이피 축하해 ~~ !!! ^^

WAAAHSJhDKAHKJSBKAKJHVhdkjshfdbvkj ~~ Yes just as the title says ~~ B.A.P Congratz !! ^^ ~~~ WWWOOOOWWWAAAHHH ~~ hahaha yes im very happy ^^ as if it was not obvious enough ~~ Good job guys ~~ imma proud of you all haha ^^ ~~  recognition after so long of constant promoting ~~and i guess this also represent that more people are supporting you guys and im very happy ~~ one step closer to world domination (?) haha :p ~~ and 可以让我放下一点点因为你们证明给观众看了^^ ~~ like sam say im like a mum -.- lol

To be very honest ~~ there is a part of me that do not concern about awards and stuff~~ cause its kinda like a popularity contest / company manipulation ~~ and you never know if there are manipulation or not >< ~~ so i dont take these awards too seriously ~~ if you win ~ I happy ^^ ~~ if you dont ~~ its okay ~~ its sort of like winning an award is an additional bonus (?) ~~ and then again ~~ there is a question of popularity is not equivalent to quality ~~ and stuff ~~ a song that is not suited to the mass population taste may not be a bad song

Unless they themselves really really REALLY wants the awards ~~ like Mr Panda Lee Seungri ~~ yes you 승리오빠 ~~ then i will be quite upset when they dont get it ~~ cause this time B.A.P also promote on twitter to ask for votes ~~ but they didnt win that time >< ~~ but comeon its okay !! you guys got 3 wins !! ~~ thats a start right ^^ ~~ slowly ~~ somemore i went to create melon account for you guys eh ~~ i didnt even created for BB and i created for you all haha  ~~ *whisperCauseBBdontgoshowchampionalso:P

It was so epic the 1st win ~~ cause i juz meet the person to trade photocard ~~ and then llike 15 mins later ~~ the girl text me thanks for trading ~~ then she said FYI b.a.p just got their 1st win ~ then i was like 0.0 ~~ the 0.0 was my face ~~ my brain was "hasjdhkHSAGJDGIWGBJBdaskhdhaskd"  ~~ cause i haven process that i juz got bbang's photocard ~~ then suddenly u told me they win ~~ i couldnt even walk properly eh ~~ like i kept looking at my phone while waking to Daiso (Cause it was the period where i went to buy stuff for Vday) ~~ then i was like cannot concentrate on what i want to buy man ~~ then i want to tweet but twitter kept eating up my tweet -.- ~~ so u saw a girl just walking around in circles at plaza sing >< lol

\^^/ 축하해

Then after a while ~~ it think it took me 30 mins ~~ i have no idea 0.0 ~~ walking in circle while looking at phone makes u dizzy :P ~~ then i begin to process info lol ~~ then i was like oh they won show champ ~~ 80% of me is like still yeah ~~ but the 20% was like ohhh okay show champ~~ cause i think show champ not a very big music program right ~~ but i was still happy that they won ~~ cause they were all so happy haha

And a few days before this win ~~ i saw someone post on tumblr or something that if B.A.P won~~ Babys shld give out sweets and stuff ~~ i dunno whether they gave to friends or stuff but i think some XMM gave to their friends ~~ then i was like 随便说说 ~~ i told sam ~~ if they won inki ~~ then i will do that ~~ give sweets to everyone ~~ then sam was like 'Everyone as in like strangers on the street?!' ~~ then i was like yeah ~~

And WOW ~~ they really did won INKI ~~ I think i was even more happy than their 1st win lol ~~ i mean INKI eh ~~ like ~~ major program ~~ * repeat all the crying/ajshdkbbckj/0.0 ~~ and i was with sam at the time cause we were on the way home from the valentine day celebration thingy ~~  then sam was like ~~ so you are giving sweets now ? ~~ then i was like .... oh ya ~~ wow ~~ ummmm >~<

So although is 随便说说 ~~ one should do she said she will do ~~ sooo ~~ i went to daiso and bought sweets and ziplock bags >< ~~ and i went to type out the reason of why i am doing that and cutted out 75 pieces of paper ~~ cause the ziplock bags was 75 ~~ haha such a weird no ~~ but the point is ~~ i kept my word

/.\

And little did i know this was going to turn out to be an epic thing 0.0 ~~ so i took the above photo and i tweeted all 6 ppl of B.A.P ~~ juz when i finished tweeting ~~ Youngjae tweeted ~~ then i was like oh wow my timing so accurate haha ~~ then i thought so maybe there is chance they will see this ~~ the ironic thing was that i wanted to tweet them the night before when i finish packing ~~ but i was too lazy ~~ and wow lets talk about timing and luck ~~ then after a few minutes ~~ suddenly i got a notification "@BAP_Himchan is now following you " ~~ i was like WHAT ??!!! ~~ then went to spam eehui and dar ~~ then eehui say maybe is a twitter glitch ~~ then i was like oohh okay ~~ then suddenly eehui told me its not a glitch 0.0 ~~ then ~~ i was like 'OMG I SO DO NOT KNOW HOW TO REACT TO THIS O.O!' ~~

After the initial shock ~~ my reaction was like "hahahhahahhah" cause Mr Kim Himchan ~~ reading babys mention and accidentally click and follow me right ~~ cause he accidentally retweeted someone tweet before ~~ hahahahah ~~ so it was half shock and half laughing at him ~~ I'm not delusional to think that he really follow me >< ~~ but the point was ~~ the person he accidentally followed was ME 0.0 !! mannn ~~~ i really dont know how to react >< ~~ the 1st thing i tweeted him was "oppa ~ Gomawo? " hahahaha ~~ but i assume that he did see my tweet and the thing eehui translated for him (Gomawo eehui ^^)

힘찬 오빠 진짜 고마워요 ^^

And i totally dunno how to give out sweets eh ~~ after this whole KHC drama thingy 0.0 ~~ lets just say i didnt know how i was going to do this ~~ then after the whole thingy ~~ i was even more flustered 0.0 ~~ I actually planned to put it on the seats in the lecture hall but i realize 75 was too little to do that ~~ so i decided to just give any one that walk pass me 0.0 ~~ since i was late for lecture i decided to distribute them after lec ~~ and i need time to recover from himchan 0.0 ~~ even till now when im typing this post ~~ it still feel so unbelievable 0.0

So ~~ I would say that at 1st it feel like ~~ umm what am i doing ~~ and after the 2nd and 3rd ~~ when adrenaline took over ~~ it was like Bammm ~~ haha wow ~~  i dont know where i get so much confidence and courage from >< ~~  but i mean ~~ it wasnt that scary or anything ~~ to me its quite like okay ~~ like a normal day (?) lol ~~ is normal day a bit too calm ~~ but ya ~~ i think its due to the adrealine and maybe my high confidence level lol ! ~ and eehui who was with me ~~ juz kept laughing all the way >:|  ~~ haha but at least there was someone walking with me :p ~~ and i got claps from her haha ^^

~ hehe thanks for the tweet ^^ ~

So ya ~~ after i gave out everything ~~ it was like fine ~~ like the whole thing nvr happen ~~ but still ~~ WOW i cant believe i did it 0.0 ~~ and i still cant believe the himchan thing happened !! ~~ actually i was quite happy doing it already ~~ but knowing that himchan kinda saw what i did ~~ it was even more worth it haha ~~ i really hope that even just 1 of the 75 saw the MV and like B.A.P because of it ~~ and i will be really happy ^^

B.A.P ~~ i helped you guys publicize already ~~ although 75 is very little but >< ~~ it was all that i could cause of i didnt have alot of cash then >< ~~ at least its something ^^ ~~ You need to attract people to stay haha ~~ and i nvr do this kind of things for BB eh ~~ 看我那么疼你们 :p

Sounds very chessy ~~ but ya ~~ Me and many many other babys will be behind u guys always ^^ ~~ so your effort and hardwork will be seen by many many more people !! I think what i did was very little compared to what other babys have done for B.A.P ~~ but we are all here for you guys ^^/♥

우리 비에이피 화이팅 !! ^^/♥

XOXO, Hugs & Kisses

♥\^^ 해피 발렌타인데이 ^^/♥

Jajiang !!! Its another festival again ^^ ~~ Happy Valentine day everyone (as usual belated vday haha >< ) ~~ every year this day comes ~~ and i think about what to make for people ~~ you know ~~ being me and not repeating my gifts to anyone haha ~~ i thought bout choc fudge and stuff ~~~ but one fine day i saw this awesome pic of an oreo pop ~~ it looks SOOO pretty when its bitten into ~~ so i decided to  do it (which is not a very good choice >< ~~ lets carry on)

So i decided to go buy oreo ~~ and being me ~~ i bough every single flavour of oreo avaliable haha ~~ so i think i had 6 flavour ~~ Orignal, strawberry, ice cream, golden orea, chocolate, choc peanut butter ~~ cause i wanted to do sort of like a bouquet for those closer to me haha  ~~ so i thought it would be a good idea to have alot of flavour ~~ turns out ~~ i did 12 for each flavour i think ~~ so i total i did 72 oreos 0.0 ~~ WOAH ~~~ like lets just say ~~ i wont be touching oreo anytime soon ><

Naked oreo hehe :P

After the middle of my process of making it ~~ i then realise that i may have done too much 0.0 ~~ like a little late man~~ but i was good that i make too much cause some of the stick began falling out of the oreo -.- ~~ soo ya ~~ lucky i have many to spare ~~  i think i melted choc and washed the bowl like 4 times ~~ i shld prob buy a new metal bowl >< ~~ and this time i tried very hard to temper the choc ~~ it still didnt temper though >< ~~ maybe i should have not bought coventure but the fondue kind ~~ cause it took forever to harder -.- ~~ but it look super pretty when i finished ~ GOOD JOB CHERYL ^^

Decorated oreo \^^/

Because it took like forever for the choc to set ~~ i only wrap it the next morning before class >< ~~ i woke up in the middle of the night to see whether it did harden but it didnt >< ~~ so no choice have to wrap it in the morning ~~ and lets juz say ~~ i really really made alot ~~ cause wrapping took like forever ~~ but i caculate ~~ each bouquet have 7 ~~ 6 flavours and 1 with name ~~ and i made 5 of those ~~ so that like 35 ~~ okay now when i type this ~~ i then realise that 72 was way too much >< ~~ but i think i rejected around 20 oreo pop cause they didnt set properly and like the stick were dropping out ~~

~ tadah ~

The bouquet turned out really pretty though !! like really pretty ~~ soo proud of myself ^^ ~~ and all 5 of them recieved very much love haha ~~ so im really really happy ^^ ~~ it really looks like a bouquet ~~ i actually bought  those kind of paper used to wrap flowers to wrap it ~~ but just by tying them together ~~ it was already so pretty ~~ i do not want to ruin it haha ^^

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and after lecture ~~ i went to Xcape (?) ~~ the lock room escape game thingy ~~ with sam, eehui and esther ~~ it was cool~~ it was fun when we actually did stuff ~~ but i think cause we were stuck in the room for very long while waiting for the other group to unlock the door ~~ it was pretty boring ~~ but once we got to do something ~~ it was fun ^^ ~~ and imma so proud of myself ~~ i managed to find a hidden door ^^ ~~ i was like 'wow, cheryl you are awesome' in my head when i figured that out haha ~~ i would probably want to go back if everyone wants to play it again ~~ cause we didnt complete it >< ~~ then after that we went for ramen haha ~~ 

So i guess that its for Vday ~~ ^^ ~~ thanks sam for your handmade blue rose and esther for the M&Ms ~~ but i didnt managed to buy a real blue rose this year :( ~~ that was a bit upsetting ~~ but ya ~~ it was overall a pretty good Vday ~~ ^^ ~~ and i wished bbang happy valentines day too /.\ haha ~~ somemore i knew 발렌타인데이 from riri's tweet :p ~~ at least i typed the 해피 myself ~~ and i didnt type 하피 hahaha :p

oh and ~~ hehehehe ~~ B.A.P valentine day choc video ~~ that was awesome ^^ ~~ *pppppssssss especiallythelastfewsecondsofthevideo /.\ *run away

XOXO, Hugs and Kisses

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~ Lady Gaga x Femmex fashion party ~

Tadah ~~ soooo i finally when to Zouk ~~ cause i think most people my age would have already been there~~ haha ~~ before going there i was thinkin about it though ~~ cause i mean i have never been to a club before and like idk ~~ lets just say the concept of clubbing is not particularly attractive to me ~~ but i totally didnt regret going haha ~~

Lets start with how i ended up with the tickets ~~  I was CNY clothes shopping with my mum ~~ then i went into Femmex ~~ i dont go to their store very  often though since i dont usually got to bugis ~~ then i bought a sweater ~~ and then at the counter i saw the event pamphlet ~~ then when i opened it i realize there will tickets attached to it ~~ then i was like take the tixs first and think about it later haha ~~ I was actually thinking about going cause i was held at zouk ~~ i mean it was a free fashion event which is awesome ~~ but its at zouk ~~ so i was still thinking bout going ~~ then i saw ppl selling tixs on twitter 0.0 ~~ but im like the tixs are free ~~ i took it from the store 0.0 ~~ then there were giveaways to win tixs too ~~ then i was like dont go very wasted ~~ i wanted to give them to jolene cause she likes lady gaga n stuff but she couldn't make it~~ thats why i decided to go on the last minute~~

When i first reach zouk i was like 0.0 ~~ so many people OMG 0.0 ~~ and then after a while we finally got in ~~ wow ~~ zouk is really pretty 0.0 ~~ like i was so not expecting it ~~ and the first thing i saw was the runway~~ it was pretty cool and awesome ^^

~Runway ~

Then we went to get our free drink ~~ Chivas i think ~~ i got mine with spirit ^^ ~~ oh i was super nice ^^ ~~ and we stayed at the VIP lounge area haha cause the whole place was opened to sit anywhere since it was a close door event ~~ and the lounge area was a top-down view of the runway so it was a pretty good spot~~ i found out that after hearing a few ppl speak ~~ most of them were there cause of the free drink >< ~~ 

Chivas Mixer

The show was not bad ~~ All the models were blogger or something ~ so they kind of not very good in the catwalk? ~~ but there were a few that could walk really really well !! ~~ the clothes were pretty okay ~~ saw one or two piece that i really like ~~ and there were performance by Darren tan ~~ i really like him from his project superstar day !! ~~ then there was this guy that stood behind me ~~ then he ask when his GF walk out can i move to let him take pic ~~ he say if he didnt take photo ~~ his GF will kill him haha ~~ and when his GF walked out ~~ he screamed super loudly haha so adorable ~~ and he said sorry to me also haha ~~ so interesting~~

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Overall the event was not really like a clubbing thing... it was just like a fashion show ~~ so i technically have yet to still experience what clubbing is like ~~ it was cool though~~ when the event ended ~~ they disassembled the stage super fast !! ~~ i think is to make room for the dance floor for the clubbing ppl ~~ we kinda left after the event and did not stay for the clubbing ~~ but it was cool ^^ ~~ i had fun ~~ they gave out goodie bag too ~~ with stickers, pin and a lookbook~~ and a glow stick ^^ ~~ 

~goodie bag~

XOXO, Hugs and Kisses

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